feelings i have been keeping in my heart from the beginning.
.last year.
i wake up every morning feeling eager 2 go 2 school 2 see u again..
i look 4ward 4 sch 2 end so tt i can see u having fun ard wif yr frens..
i will jump out of bed on the days tt i hv the same recess as u..
my heart will beat a million times a minute when i see u
.this year.
life have been boring these days without u..
every morning i will feel tt going 2 school is a chore..
i will still look 4ward 4 sch 2 end coze i wanna just go back home 2 think abt the memories..
u make my day..now tt i will never be able 2 see u again..i kan onli juz hope 4 a mirical..
.yest.
when i saw u again..
i felt like tt was my happiest day..
my heart could not stop beating so fast...
seeing u again juz makes me smile..

i donnoe if today is a happy day or a sad day...it seems 2 be happy at 1st then sad later..hais.. aniway..in the morning had all the lessons n then was recess!!!=) ate so damn a lot kanx..nvm..once every week..heEx..then i was like looking 4ward 2 1.45 when the bell goes so we kan all go see the pass sec4s!!! but b4 tt...we all tot got history test lor.. was like memorising like mad abt propaganda! hahah..then miss ang say postpone..yes!!!..so rushed down 2 the canteen.. me nic n elana were like retarted fools goin ard looking 4 *..haha..thanks yar! n at last saw her..she kept her hair long lor!! so damn chio kan!..then i was like trying not 2 faint on the spot..so grab elana n nic 2 steady myself..haha.. then walked ard the whole sch.. met lots of seniors!! miss them soooooooo much! some ppl cried...some ppl jumped wif joy.. rach say she saw* not veri happy...n she went straight home!! never wait 4 me 2 see her 4 the veri last time!!..hais.. toking abt seeing her 4 the last time juz makes me wanna cry out loud..so sad kan!!! nvm..melissa can do it without her yar!!!...-i think i can- hais.. nvm.. juz 4get abt her n carry on wif life huh?!?!?..kayex..2morrow there's cca..don feel like goin kan..no mood...wadever say so much but still muz go rite..kayx...so goin 2 juz 4get abt the memories..n start afresh yar?...ok..don feel like carrying on typing le..

in the morning had assembly..-duh!- then had art..laugh laugh laugh AGAIN..haha.. aft tt had recess!!eat eat eat.. but did not eat so much..2morrow got more food!! fri, is my fav. recess man!=D..-greedy face-.. then had science test.. im prepared 2 fail..yups..don even noe wad the question toking abt kan!..aft test had maths.. oh man..i think my maths is becoming bad 2 worse..worse 2 worser...worser to worserer..kayx..not farny.. maths le then was lit.. helped rachel draw the face on the hand then elana also draw..keep on laughing lor.. next was chi. haha..laugh again..toked abt canes??haha.. donnoe lah..was not really listening coze the elana keep on showing her hand-face 2 me..haha.. last period was sucky history.. miss ang juz told us today tt there's a hostory common test 2morrow?!?!?!.. wth!! where got enough time 2 study lor.. wadever.. aft sch went oms 2 eat..rush like siao coze got maths remedial..hais..but enjoyed it man!! my tutor so farny lor..haha.. n made a new fren=)!!..heEx.. then met weiqi..n i abandon her 2 do my d&t..then the miss rose so wad lor.. say wad i cannot drive next time coze i cannot cut my lines straight..hmph! then went 2 meet up wif qi..walked ard..then we both keep on laughing like some mad dog kanx..haha..then met rach..n sheryl..then hannah..then rach koh..hahah./ then nic then WENT HOME! haha..kaex.. tt was my day.. kind of like a laughing day huh..haha.. 2morrow pass sec4s are coming back 2 collect their os results..-freaky huh-..juz pray hard tt they will do well huh..-then will hv one day holiday- haha..no lah..kaex.. need 2 go study 4 history liao..

kaex..today nth much happen during sch hours... at 1.10pm some ppl were dismissed.. went 2 the drug rehab center.. partnered verns!!=) on the bus there will went MAD! haha..then in the center itself...we were all so scared lor.. so strict kanx.. cannot bring anything in..cannot tok..take off yr bage n nametag..-_-..then the prisoners were everywhere .. so scary..then elana was chanting -they all just normal human like us-..haha.. yar..then went 2 'cells'..was damn hot in there lor.. no fan AT ALL..then went in to the isolation ward..tt's the worse place man! so hot kanx like suana..haha.. then went back 2 sch le.. in the bus ride back everyone was like zzZzzZ..haha..aft. tt went home le.. n noe wad?? 2morrow there's d&t!! argH!..just hope tt she will not be so kpo n help everyone 2 cut off part of there drawings..

I HATE MISS ROSE I HATE MISS ROSE I HATE MISS ROSE I HATE MISS ROSE I HATE MISS ROSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-breathes in and out in and out-
-this is all i have 2 say abt my day-

went 2 church in the morning..yups..had tuanqi aft lessons.. n i was goin 'who want 2 donate!!!' then of coze everybody run away lah.. then i ask issac issac u wanna donate..??' n he was like'how much?' n i replied' left the $10 n $5 spaces onli ..' so thinking tt he will say 'siao' or 'crazy' i was goin 2 walk away when he said 'later i ask my father 4 money then i donate kay' i was like 'omg!! thanks! u r my heroooo!!' haha..okok..YES! thanks issac!-though i noe he won see this- lols..then went 2 orchard 2 makan bought some prex=)) at long last..then went home..now im here when im suppose 2 be doin some hw.. hais.. okiex..betta go do now..sian ah!!!!

in the morning went 2 sch 4 handbells.. went 4 like 1hr onli coze got chem extra lesson.. the handbells instructor so farny lor.. lolx.. kay..the chem lesson was okay lah.. then went 2 sheryl's house 2 wait 4 gb 2 end.. came back 2 sch met raina.. then met qi..so tok 2 qi 4 a while..then she needed 2 go home so xiao yan pei me wait 4 them..thanks! waited 4 them 4 like sooooo long kan.. then FINALLY gb ended.. went ps with nicole n jinhua.. nicole wanted 2 cut her hair.. but the REDs hairdresser is like so ex..so went all the way 2 far east... found out tt the $10 shop nicole wanted 2 go closed down??? then went 2 another shop ..$18.. then while nic cut her hair.. jinhua was like saying the hairdresser wearing g-string?!?!? lolx. then she keep on wan 2 'steal' my wallet lor..haha..joking joking.. then nic's hair style is like so stylish..a little TOO stylish.. yups.. then mom called -as expected- and scolded me 4 going out 4 lunch 4 so long..hais.. then rushed home n she said i CANNOT EVER go out 4 lunch on sat.EVER again..hmph!!!

whOohOo!!! at last its friday yar.. means..NO TESTS!!!.. n NO TING XIE!! 4 2 days..haha.. okay.. today nth much happen.. juz had lessons lessons n some more lessons.. sighs.. in the morning had chem.. 2morrow theres chem extra lesson.. so can miss handbells 4 1whole hr!!!YESYESYES!!.. -cools down- aft tt had eng letter writing.. then was recess.. ate soooo much kan we all.. kay..lets see,.. i ate the tereaki-donnoe how 2 spell kay- chicken..then 3fishballs.. and a few pices of the donnoe wad koropok.. yups..hahah..nvm lah huh..once in a while..lolX..went up had maths.. so boring kanx.. then was erms.. chi..had tingxie... DIEDED... never even learn lor.. so too bad 4 me lah huh.. aft chi went 2 ava room 4 history 2 watch the japanese show.. elana veri fany lor..she so scared until almost cry kan.. lolx.. act got handbells aft sch but was cancelled..so ate lunch then went home with teresa.. then at the busstop there was this sec 1 indian gal who kept smiling at me.. then i tot is teresa's fren..but is not..teresa tot is my fren?? haha..then i smiled back lah.. n she went 2 look at my nametag n pronounced my name???..she said 'me..li..ssa..' i was like ..erms..yar..tt's my name..n i din noe how 2 pronounce her name so i din lah..if not so throw face..haha..kaex..tt's my day..2morrow got handbells n chem lesson.. maybe goin out wif nic 2 cut hair.. but i don dare ask my mom how?? hais....

kaex...today's a boring day.. donnoe why 2day i get so piss off by small problems...wth.. 1st had english.. then was chapel n then d&t.. wahlao..in the middle of doing d&t had the stupid fire drill.. miss kok toking haf way suddenly RINGGGGGGGGGG
then i was like..:erm i think is fire drill.. then we all were like..huh ...already no time 2 finish d&t still fire drill.. ok..then aft everything..went back 2 do.. then when i doing the donnoe wad lah..the cutting..yes.. the stupid miss rose keep on saying me lor.. then she do 4 me she keep on twisting the thing.. until the thing almost snap.. so idiotic.. aft. had recess...went 2 lab 4 music..laugh until like mad lor sitting beside pamela..lolX.. then had physics..zZzzZzzZ.. last period was pc.. aft. sch stayed back 4 the public speaking..it was kinda ok??? then came home.. ohyar..n jinhua..thanks 4 yr prex kay!!=)
-now im toking 2 a gal online who is fm malaysia n she says she juz anyhow add ppl??..haha.. but she's soooo funny!! feels so gd toking 2 someone u donnoe and u kan juz spill all yr problems 2 them.. she gives such gd advices!! maybe coze she's 18.. yups.. so experience in all this kind of things..haha.. ohyar n she told me she has a galfren?!?!?! lolX-

[yest.]
yesterday's valentine's day!!! BUT had 2 go 2 sch 4 handbells 1st.. in the morning met jinhua.. she gave me my prex..so swt..thanks!!!.. played handbells le.went opp. 2 eat noodles wif wanyi n huizi.. came back..waited 4 rachel.. then gang hao gb had their break.. maluated me lor!!.. kaex.. shall not tok abt this.. waited 4 qi n nicole.. went 2 ps 4 lunch.. met evon n delia!! so qiao wor..hahas..bought some stuff n went home.. then went out again..4 dinner..hais..so tired
[today.]
went 2 church in the morning.. went 2 ps AGAIN..but this time wif parents.. coze yest. saw smth i wan 2 giv my fren.. but den no $..so today clever came wif my parents..=))) bought le then went home.. do hw haf way fall asleep.. then here i am.. not even a single hw done.. n its exactly 12hrs away fm sch..izzit enough???..tomorrow's monday.the starting day of the week..hope tt it would be a great week 4 everyone yar!=)

[yest.]
yesterday had heats.. ran 4 the 100m run.. was so damn scared lor.. i din noe wad i came in as.. was toO tired.. but they say i came in 3rd.. hais.. then was the 1500m.. was like soo tired lor.. ran the whole mass run wif teresa!! *partner!! haha.. ok..lame. next went home le..legs so pain kanX..
[today]
today nothing much.. stayed back 2 watch the heats.. walk teresa out 2 the opp. bus stop wif jinhua 2 take wad??.. a cab?!?!.. coze at 1st she wanted 2 take 53.. but is like so far lor.. so supplied her wif 5 bucks.. then walk back 2 sch.. finish watching the heats le then went home.. my ribcage there hurts lah!! laugh also pain..cough also pain..hais..haha.. kaykay.. got lots of hw..betta go do now.. or else the teachers will come ham-tam me..-zoOms off-

today's the WORST day of my life man..kaex..maybe nort life...worst day of the month man!!..1st my mom says tt i cannot gop out wif nic n teresa coze i juz went out last wk..i was like!@#$%^&*..okie..then next was handbells..i left my bottle there!!!!!!!!!.. hope its still there..then my nose is like a tap lor..sneeze sneEZE..SNEEZE!!!hais.. goin 2 kana killed by mom.. this is my 3rd bottle this yr lor..n now is like onli feb?!?!?!nvm lah..i also cannot get back in time 2 get my bottle right..kaex..gonna go other site le..tAta!

kayz!! the doomday's over! yeah!!! y doom day?? coze today there's 3 test:chemistry.physics.history class test..yups.. AND there's also giving back of chinese test pp...which i did badly..got like 50.5 out of 80?! aiyar..at least i pass lah huh.. there's also giving back of ting xie..and its OVEROVEROVER!! haha..kaex..i think im getting retarted over here.. but 2morrow theres history common test.. hmph!.. lets see...2day there's art in the morning..the ms yeo keep on saying me.qi.nic.rach keep on talking then ppl don need compulsory hand up the work 2day but we muz!?!?!haha...but nvm..then had recess.. aft tt was erm..maths..ZzzzZzzZ..me n rach were like studing 4 history..haha..then had chi..heartattack! got back so many things..aft was our dOom period...HISTORY!..was sooooOOOoooO diff. lor..then the stupid ms ang din let us go on time 4 our sci. test..so at long last she dismissed us..n...SCIENCE test!!!...was...erm...hard???..everything 2 me is hard lah hor.. had lunch then went home le..now muz go study 4 history test le...-pUfF-

life's juz so boring now a days..its juz study study everyday..getting bored of life sometimes..hais... aniway.. went 2 watch cheaper by a dozen today..was fully book lor..so had 2 sit 1st row..the show's super farny..got one part so touching lor...almost wanted 2 cry.. then went 2 WALK ard...walk all the way fm sommerset mrt station 2 orchard mrt station kan!!!
my legs are like wanting 2 giv up le..then went wisma 2 eat dinner..KFC..aft. went 2 buy smth wif eunice..then went home..
feeling sooo tired now.. still hv not started on my hw yet..n there are soooooooo many tests this wk..hais..die le lah.. nvm.. juz live life one day at a time..